Wednesday, November 28, 2007

A Day in My Life

I woke up at 6.59am, didn't want to but got up, brushed my teeth, ate a banana while checking emails, got dressed up for the excursion outside, freezing as I left at 7.34am. Took a tram 4 stops, transferred and went one more stop, walked another 4 minutes to my first class. It's often difficult to get in right away because no one is manning that door so early (7.51am) but today someone was propping the door open for themselves. I made some photocopies for the class, made photocopies for another class, took some light blue and light yellow and recycled colored paper and then went and taught a class on email etiquette, ended class 15 minutes early like every week because I have another course at 9.30am down the street. I made photocopies, got a coffee and sat in the small conference room waiting for whatever lawyers were gonna show up. Today I got 3 of the 5 (remember the 6th, Christian Wolf, the student of mine who died last month) and we spent 30 minutes talking about a case where a German manufacturer of large "meat machines" that do sausage and mince meat, etc was going to sue a Polish manufacturer for basically ripping off their design. I ended that class 15 minutes early because of another job in another town but I gave them this lesson for free because I need to end my class early for a few weeks.

I took at tram at 10.18pm and was at the train station for a 10.40am train. I bought a hot balogna sandwich for one euro and went to my platform number (7). Train came and I travelled 13 minutes to Kirchzarten, walked for 6 minutes and then had two 90-minute classes with a 25-minute break in between. We talked about email etiquette and emails from their jobs. I took the train back to Freiburg but only to Littenweiler, the first of the 3 possible stops. I then waited for the train to go past before crossing the tracks and walking to the tram which took another 3-4 minutes before it took off, was on it 9 minutes and then got off and went into a drug store and bought shampoo, bath gel, mouthwash and toothpaste and 5 lottery tickets (did I win?) Then I went home, spent less than 10 minutes at home (it was 3.05pm), grabbed 9 photos I'm exhibiting on Saturday and rode my bike to the restaurant where the exhibition is, dropped off the photos to a waitress pulling pillows from outdoor seats that only European and Eskimo people would sit at, then rode my bike another 6-7 minutes to the tree where Chick A+ and I first met. While I waited (I was a few minutes early), I put up my first Modern Earl poster for the Groovement Festival. On the tree.

Chick A+ came and first we made copies at the university, about 70 copies of the 4 small fliers per page kind and the 50 full-page ones. Then we went to Cheers, had two good salads and conversation, then went and flyered the shit out of the university center, small ones and big ones, in probably 10 different lecture rooms including one that held 300 people and basically walked through each row dropping off 4 per row on both sides. Then we went to Jos Fritz to have a coffee because it was so damn cold and Chick A+ wasn't feeling tops anyway. We had two capuccinos (1.90euro/each) and she was surprised at how simple the decoration was but she warmed to it (thanks, capuccino!). We walked back to my bike and we parted ways at Kaijo Street and she went home and I went home. I washed the dishes, preparing lessons and getting some shit together.

I rode my bike back into the city center and met Martin, the drummer from the Uplifters at the Groovement Festival and we talked about a mixing board and sleeping arrangements for Modern Earl. Then two guys who helped me with the Jos Fritz exhibition in July who are students at ISW came and had me read a 2.5 page concept for sponsoring a multinational art exhibition gathering. I corrected it as best I could. I finished my second beer and left and rode my bike to Chick A+'s. We ate tomato soup I brought over for her while her 3 female roommates were watching the end of Grey's Anatomy (wedding episode?). Chick A+ and I worked on our "avatars" for our Yahoo profiles (yes, I got a cowboy shirt on mine!), then I rode home and am now listening to Howard Stern from this morning and glad I got through this whole blog post. I hope you enjoyed it. Tomorrow will be long too. Cheers.

Monday, November 26, 2007

Pizza and stuff

I had a long, crappy day. I walked out of a class I was teaching which has never happened before. I was only gone for 30-45 seconds but I was fucking pissed. Student apathy, that's why I'm quitting that job.

I had a meeting about my exhibition on Saturday and the chick was 30 minutes late for a 5-minute meeting.

I went to Chick A's for pizza tonight and she did a great job of listening to my whine and bitch and cry about my life. I'm normally really good and dealing with life. The thing is, I don't take life seriously, I take living seriously, but not life itself and sometimes, especially as I get older it makes me take it seriously and I don't like it. I got all of this potentially bad/unpleasant shit going on in my life and I went over to her house and sat on the ground in the kitchen and just bitched while she prepared pizzas. I will never be able to tell her how much she's meant to me and I know sometimes our friendship is a bit fucked up but that's mostly my fault because I'm a bit fucked up right now but I really care about her. I can't imagine how anyone else in my life could have been there for me like she has. She's got all of these good things going on in her life and so maybe she has some extra good energy to deal with me, who knows, but I really appreciate it. No one will ever know the whole story and that's probably for the best but the world should know that that chick has made what could have been some of the very worst months of my entire life into a pretty damn good time. I hope she knows that.

I'm fucking tired. I've been cursing too much lately. I have to work at 8am. I'm worried no one will come to the Groovement Festival and that any day a letter is coming from the Social Security asking for all of my money. I feel lonely sometimes and it's been manifesting itself poorly at times. I'm gonna be okay, I know, but I ain't there yet. Cheers...

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Normal Europe

Chick A and Maya met for the first time this weekend and I have to say it went pretty damn well, all things considered. We got a serious buzz on friday night, getting home around 4am, unsure of if we had taken a taxi home or not! And on Saturday, we took it easy the whole afternoon and then Chick A came over at 7pm, we made some dinner, drank mimosas and then a buddy came over and the four of us drank more and then went down to Walfisch to take it to the next level. Chick A and I ended up going to Swamp after that and then were home around 3.30am or so, singing a song with the last lines: It'll be all right, I'll be home tonight, I'm coming back home. Those words mean a lot to Chick A and I could totally relate because A) I'm going home soon and B) I love back home and I miss it but I'm still here for now.

Maya said something that made Chick A want to high five her and it was a comment about "Normal Europe". It was a context thing and you had to be there and it was pretty funny but it struck a nerve with Chick A and she was like yeah, give me a high five because it was how she felt. If you've been to England and Western Europe and Eastern Europe, "Normal Europe" can make good sense to you...

Busy week:
Monday: work and then a meeting at the restaurant where my next photo exhibition is on saturday.
Tuesday: work and then some time off during the day to work on a proposal for one of my prospective jobs
Wednesday: work and prep work for the exhibition
Thursday: work all day
Friday: work in the morning and maybe whoop it up a bit Friday night. Chick A is leaving on Friday for 5 days because of a job interview at her dream job in Italy. It's a great thing for her and the possibilities in her life keeping growing and it's been great to be a part of it. I know that I am playing second fiddle to her job prospects but that's okay. We are both serving a purpose in our lives and it's been a good experience.

All right, Sunday night, no specific plans, could go to O'Kellys but don't feel like it, could go out to meet some friends but don't feel like it, could stay in bed and watch tv and don't feel like it, could write in my journal but don't feel like it. I could do anything and don't feel like it. Don't worry, I'll do something...

Thursday, November 22, 2007

three times six

the last 3 nights I've gotten six hours or less of sleep each night and that ain't enough. I did have a good performance at the Slam Supreme, a poem about the foreign authorities and also a short story about 100 days of my life. I've been hanging with Chick A the past nights and we are getting to know each other better and better each day though both of us are leery of it getting too close because she's moving away soon, I just got out of a relationship and other reasons but for the most part, we have a great time together and I also know I'll have fun when she's around.

I'm freakin' exhausted, I have one more class to teach and then I plan to chill out and watch a movie but for now, I thought I'd give thanks for a few things:

1)My mom's healthy, it appears the cancer is gone for now, that little bastard and I'm so happy she's healthy
2)I have work, friends and enough money to take my date out a few times a week
3)I'm going to california in a month
4)I have my first music gig (not playing but organizing) in more than 15 years.

There's more but I'm too tired, I just didn't want ya'll to think I was dead!

Saturday, November 17, 2007

The newest recipient of a dream

We all know that life can be ironic, even downright deliciously so but even she has outdone herself this time...

Chick A+ and I had tried to drunkenly buy her plane tickets to California in February on Tuesday night around 1am. We entered all the information, including the credit card and passenger name, pressed enter for "book tickets" and waited. There was an error, it informed us, and then Chick A+ started having second thoughts (some might call it sobering up), saying hey, I don't even know where I'll be living then and I complain to my folks about my money problems and here I am trying to buy 480euro plane tickets. I don't know, I have to think about it.

We discussed it the next night but she said that she had to think about it more and that we could discuss it on Sunday (tomorrow). I was a bit disappointed because I was so excited to let me friends and family get a chance to meet her, especially because she has meant so much to me the past few months but hey, booking a 2 week trip to a foreign country on the other side of the world does require a little bit of thought so I dropped the matter.

Last night after the Ryan Adams concert (more on that in a minute), Maya and I were on the train home with a carload full of drunk English people and I got a message from Chick A+ around 12.30am that said: Do you still want me to come to California? And I of course wrote back yes! So, she wrote me an email this morning and said that that was the right answer because Opodo (the travel website) sent me the tickets. I thought, strange way of saying you just booked tickets but fantastic, great, so happy to hear it. We are on the same flight from Frankfurt to LA which is good. But here's where it gets good.

We just talked on the phone about an hour ago and I said, you're so crazy baby, I can't believe you would just book the tickets like that and she said, I didn't book the tickets. They ended up in my mailbox yesterday. And I was like, what??? And apparently our little drunken escapade on Tuesday DID work!!! It said that it didn't but for some reason it did and the girl now has tickets to California the same time I will be there! Unbelievable, man!

The Ryan Adams concert was amazing. He played 27 songs and played for 2.5 hours. We met a nice couple from Essex, a cool dude from Scotland and a strange one from Canada who was playing some gigs in Berlin soon and we wanted to hear more about it but he just bailed and went back to his seat. I was standing in the balcony the whole time, probably has as good a time as any muthafucka there and it kicked ass.

I'm flying back from London to Basel tomorrow afternoon and with any luck Chick A+ and I will be in Walfisch eating dinner at 8pm and drinking champagne by 9.30pm, celebrating us being in California together. Wow...Chick A+ just sent me a song called "Drinking in LA" that I'm listening to and she is writing me a message on skype chat about her interview in copenhagen.

Well, I guess you're updated now!

Thursday, November 15, 2007

2 hours and 3 minutes

in two hours and three minutes my bus will leave from the train station and take me to Basel airport. I'm off to London for the next 3 nights, I can't wait! It's great because I don't have to do much in terms of tourism because I've already been to London numerous times and so I just wanna see the Ryan Adams concert and the rest of the time just chill out and hang with my friends.

I had my 3 university classes today and they went pretty well. My date last night with Chick A+ was great, actually most of this week has been great, every day we seem to understand each other a little better and we get closer. It's crazy because I think some of our friends would be surprised to see how close we've become in the past couple of months. I told her last night that it's not like we are filling holes in our lives as it is more than we have created new space in our lives. There is no other chick right now that I'd rather go to Walfisch and eat, have some drinks and then come back and hang at my place.

We got drunk on Tuesday night together at Cheers and had a blast. It's like a little bubble that others can't really penetrate. She's in Copenhagen now (I think) and tomorrow is her job interview. Good luck, girl! And see ya'll soon!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Copenhagen and London

hey ya'll,

We're getting some snow baby! Thank god I'm inside chilling. Got a date with Chick A+ tonight and we are two of the coolest little jetsetters on earth. She's off to Copenhagen for a job interview tomorrow and I'm off to London to visit Maya, Arianna and of course to see Ryan Adams in concert on Friday night.

I had a job interview today for a place called something like "Center for Final Qualification". It would be business English, a bit of work on the front end but it could be worth it, especially because it's in the middle of the city and can be at normal times, like 4pm or 6pm. I don't want to work later than 7.30pm if I can help it anymore, it's so nice being finished at a humane hour. I would normally have to be going to Emmendingen tonight in a bit and have to work from 6-9pm. God, thank you for giving me enough to let me quit that.

Chick A+ just might buy plane tickets to California for February tonight. I want her to come so bad, I want to show her Laguna Beach, San Diego, LA, Irvine Spectrum, my parents' house, she can meet my friends and drink at Boscoe's and we can do karaoke and drink dollar beers and eat dollar tacos with beautiful weather in February. I'll show her the Hollywood Walk of Fame, and Skewers Restaurant in West Hollywood. She has meant so much to me the past few months that I desperately want my friends and family to meet this girl who has entered my life at one of the most crucial junctures I've encountered. She can meet Nate and Amy, Zach, see Mooney again and drink beer on the beach with him, practice a bit of spanish if she wants when we order some burritos in san diego, and take her to Malibu, and the 3rd Street Promenade. There is so much to show the girl, it'd be great. I'll keep ya updated folks!

Monday, November 12, 2007

We Can Work it Out

It's another Monday morning, I think I'm more tired than when the weekend began but that's only because we got our crazy on for Friday night that led to Saturday/Sunday being slower than normal.

We celebrated Chick A+'s birthday friday into saturday night and then went on until almost 6am when 3 of us were still dancing to Eurodance music that I had never heard before. It was a great party for 5 people and many fantastic photos were taken, not all of which the parents of the people in said photos would be happy to see but that's what is so great about succumbing to the moment, ya know?

Saturday was Chick A+'s birthday and she made us a fat and decadent breakfast and we napped a bit and then I went hom and she came over at 7pm for a drink of champagne and then down to Walfisch for her birthday dinner. The sharklady ate fish, how apropos! We weren't in a real party mood so we went and hung out at my place.

It's funny, man, she and I are trying real hard to work this thing out we got going. It's admirable how much effort we're putting in. We both know how important we are to each other right now and how our lives here in Freiburg would not be near as good without each other and that's been one of our motivating factors. It's not perfect but I think yesterday we both finally realized that our "relationship" is going to require some compromise on both sides because neither of can get exactly what we want (sing: you can't always get what you want!) but we have both swallowed a little pride (which is tough sometimes!) and was topped off with a little inside joke from Chick A+ in the bathtub yesterday: We can work it out. Indeed...

Have a 4-day workweek and then on Thursday night I'm flying to London where I'll see Arianna and Maya again and Maya and I are going to a Ryan Adams concert and I can't wait! But there is the still the work of this week to get through first, not to mention my first cup of coffee of the day!

Friday, November 09, 2007

Garlic press/Art Supplies/Party party

hey peeps,

It's a cold and gray Friday afternoon, I've already spent 150dollars in art supplies for two exhibitions I have coming up in the next month and I'm chillin in my apartment waiting to go out and whoop it up tonight. Ya see, Chick A+'s birthday is at midnight. She will be the big 25, an age I remember vividly because it's when my life started as I know it. True, I must have been conceived in late September 1973 but it wasn't until the month before my 25th birthday that I felt like I understood life at all. I've been busting my hump the past 8.5 years trying to live a life as full as possible and Chick A+ is just hitting that age. It'll be interesting to see where her life leads her. Before her 26th birthday, she will most definitely be living in another country. That alone is an interesting thing. Some of her friends are meeting at her place at 10pm for champagne, bruschetta and fun. I was invited and I shall be there with bells on. She wants me to bring the garlic press for her bruschetta which I have to admit is the best I have ever had. She's that kind of girl, ya know? :)

Tomorrow we'll be celebrating her birthday by having a fat dinner at Walfisch and then who knows what but it's her weekend and I'm up for anything. I'll try and fill you in tomorrow or Sunday what happens tonight and tomorrow but it's going to be entertaining to say the least! Cheers, ya'll!

Wednesday, November 07, 2007

Round 2

In numbered sentences:

1)I finally got enough sleep, had two vivid dreams, one in which VP Cheney was driving a car in an underground parking lot trying to shoot me and the other with me giving an impassioned plea to the Senate Judiciary Committee to not confirm Mukasey as the new attorney general.

2)Work was okay.

3)I met Chick A+ and we got her a student ID, and tried to get her out of a 40-euro ticket for having not paid to ride the tram but it didn't work.

4)I bought a new shirt and got the word 'Groovement' printed on it for my music festival.

5)Chick A+ found out that she passed the second round of her EU job competition. She is just one round away from possibly becoming a civil servant for the European Union. That makes her automatically one of the coolest people I know.

6)I am going to meet a buddy for drinks soon.

I'm happy and relaxed and yo yo yo!

Tuesday, November 06, 2007

Drama King

Well, it's been declared, I'm a drama king! hahaha, mostly stemming from the fact that I feel the need to express my every emotion to the whole world. Hello all 10 of you! But seriously, Chick A may have had a point. I occasionally provoke to get a reaction as well. It's not something I do consciously or, when I do, I think I know it's a bit immature but I guess I'm not getting what I want from the other person. It's been an interesting experience with Chick A, I've learned a lot about myself, learned how little I know women (again!) but some really good things have come out of it.

First, I've made a new friend. That doesn't happen soooOOOooo often in life anymore once you're out of school and kind of fixed in how your life works. I mean, I have a couple of other new friends I've made recently as well: Alex, Oli and Carolin but of course this friendship with Chick A is different. We've been together physically, as well as the other drunken stupid things I do with my other new friends. Probably the best thing about all of this is that all of my new friends are German. Ok, Chick A is not German and if I said she was, she would hit me and most definitely never sleep with me again! hahaah but her passport says so (even though that's about the only German thing about her I can think of). Having German friends helps me feel more at home here. I wasn't sure what was going on in my life (I'm still not sure, actually) after Assiyeah broke up with me and what was next for me in life but I see now that my life just continues as it was, just without her. I've been having a great time the past few months, not every moment great and also some very low moments but in general the past 3 months have been a time that I won't ever forget.

Second, I've become close to a new woman. It's been a couple of months now but I had some serious concerns (don't we all at time of heartbreak) of how long it would take before I could attract another woman into my life. Now, Chick A and I are more friends than anything but I would be lying to ya'll if I said that we weren't close. She and I talk about things I don't talk to other people about so much, we've done things I don't do with other people (currently) and even though we are sort of on different paths in life, our paths have most definitely criss-crossed since late July (criss-cross will make ya jump jump!).

Third, the past 3 months have had the possibility to be one of depression, unhappiness, uncertainty but they haven't. Yes, there have been moments with those attributes but they have been far and few between and Chick A is the one person on earth (besides me) who has helped bridge my life over those feelings. She cares about me as a person. I can't really ask for anything more from a human being.

So, the drama king is sitting at home at 10.32am, taught one class this morning (while tired as fuck!), picked up the photos I need for my two next exhibitions (November 30 and December 8) and am listening to Howard Stern online, in my pajamas and I can hang out here the next hours, until around 4pm. Then I'm heading into the city to have an espresso maybe with Chick A, pick up part of her birthday present, meet Lennart and Martin to talk about the Groovement Festival flyer and then teach a class from 6-7:30pm. Perhaps, but I don't know, Ms. Chick A is coming over to watch some more My Name is Earl and chill out. Chillin out is good...

Monday, November 05, 2007

Back from Holland

It was a great trip, got to see some new and old friends and I got pretty much everything I wanted out of the trip but it also feels good to be back. Of course I have to work today but that's kind of how the world works, right?

Chick A came over last night around 10.30pm and it was the first time we had seen each other in nearly a month. I was really excited to see her, had some champagne chilling and was so happy to see her come up the stairs to my place. She was wearing a new gray sweater and blue jeans I'd never seen before but she said they weren't new.

We talked about the past month a bit, about her job interviews in Copenhagen and Italy, ya know, normal shit like that but somehow it felt a bit different and that came out more as the evening went on. She just wants to be friends. I couldn't believe it, especially after the email she had sent on thursday and our chat on the same day, I thought that somehow we were on the same page again about what we wanted. But I was wrong. She said she just wasn't attracted to me, among other things. Her biggest concern is that we won't be friends if there isn't some physical aspect to our relationship. She doesn't have much to worry about but it got me thinking. I like hanging out with her, I like spending time with her but I'm also hot for her and that's definitely a part of it. It's going to be interesting how it all manifests. Who knows, she's just gonna be living her for some months anyway but I thought, maybe, just maybe, we might find some common ground where we could sort of be together without major complications from either side. Now we're not together and there seems like there are complications anyway! hahaha, c'est la vie.

That was my wake-up call. I"m going to be home in less than 6 weeks. My mom said she has lost 12 pounds (about 5kilos) and that was an inspiration for me. Chick A said she had lost 5 pounds. I'm going jogging now. I need to get fit and in shape in order to wrangle Chick C or D into my life. Remember Chick B? Hahaha, I barely do either! :) I'll let ya know what happens.

Friday, November 02, 2007

My Alkmaar hurts!

I went on a 24-kilometer bike ride yesterday, probably one of the longest of my entire life and my arse hurts! Alkmaar is the name of the town I'm in right now, staying in an old farm house with a Hospitalityclub member. We have had a great time, this is the second person I have ever couchsurfed with a second time. Assiyeah and I stayed with her (Roelie) last summer in Utrecht and now she is living in an anti-squat about 10 minute bike ride from the city of Alkmaar, Holland's 12th-largest city with about 95,000.

We rode the bikes to the beach, had some fish and chips, road through a desolate dune area and some of the most fertile-looking farmland with cows and sheep that I have ever seen.

Dinner the past two nights:
1)chicken with eggplant, onion, garlic, and potatoes
2)pork with mashed potatoes and sauerkraut

Good stuff! We got pretty drunk two nights ago and were still up and dancing around 4am and after the bike ride yesterday, I was falling asleep sometime after midnight even though my host wanted to go out again. Sorry, Roelie, I'm an old man, couldn't do it! hahaha so I got a pretty good night sleep and am heading to Amsterdam for the 6th time in my life and there I'll be meeting up with Maya for the weekend.

I'll be seeing Chick A+ on Sunday night and I am very happy 'bout that, we haven't seen each other in nearly a month and she has lots of new and exciting things going on in her life, namely 4 job interviews (3 in Italy and 1 in Copenhagen) in the next weeks, things are looking up for her and I'm happy for her. With any luck, we'll be drinking champagne and laughing around 9pm on Sunday but until then, I have the fun of Amsterdam approaching baby!